desperately

things i would do :

-respects parents
-study like so damn hard
-stop eating in midnight
-dont touching bb while doing hw or stdy
-stop lying ,unless necesarry
-drinks more water
-jumping! so to get taller
-be nice to everyone
-eats more fish
-stop yelling or whatsoever
-eat healthy food, such as vegetables n fruits
-tidy up my room IMMEDIATELY
-money saving
-hair treats
-practicing piano
-stop staring to the lamps
-wake up earlier
-never ever skips tuition again
-listens to the every talking teacher
-say hi or at least smile to the ppl i know
-dont gets angry
-sleep before 11
-facial
-stop hating witch , youknowwho
-go green
-stop calling her witch

i still cant post any picture here :(
omg kill me ! so i'm here laying on my bed as a piglet or whatever it is , but i cant lie , i dont wanna do some get up stuffs just to grab my bb , remote tv, or water cause i need it right now but they're too far away of course fromm here , my mind starts flying it explores through whereever it wants to , I WAS HAPPY, because my usedtobealmostperfect life , gone , just gone , like that , why the hell good ppl always gone sooner ? do i have to be bad or smth to avoids this sickness that always shown inside my head ? its 10.30, i need to get my remote to watch my dearest dogwhisperer shows, and the truth is , i dont even know wht time does it actually plays , ohohohahah, silly me , or on what days, too .
cause like i said my mind isnt on my head anymore, i just wanna die .i just wanna die i just wanna die
(going softer like on movies you know)
so whatever.

















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